Letting people in is so difficult it’s like ohlord my mental illness door has 15 locks and I lost 5 of the keys and forgot 3 of the padlock combinations and due to all the anxiety I can’t even remember how to turn a damn doorknob
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Woah it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted on tumblr.
Life has been a crazy rollercoaster these past few years but I can’t think of a better way to celebrate 4 years self harm free than finally posting that I’m almost 16 weeks pregnant! I can’t wait to meet my little bean. So much love for such a tiny human 💖
Can we normalize doing nothing, please?
I work with kids. These kids are at my program before and after school, and then some of them have sports/dance/music sometimes all of the above before they finally go home, eat dinner, and go to sleep. Then rinse and repeat everyday, and games and more classes on the weekend, etc.
I’m all for extracurriculars, but this turns into the teen who is not only in the school play, but they’re on the newspaper, the football team, and seven different clubs. In college they take double the courseloads, and then once they graduate…what?
They work themselves raw because they arent used to downtime. They’ve been told they can always be doing something, and they don’t know how to relax. This turns into the adult that has anxiety because there’s nothing left to clean, the adult that desperately wants to watch that TV show but can’t force themselves to sit long enough for it.
Then they turn into the moms and dads who spend all their free time ferrying their kids to extracurriculars.
Like, these kids don’t know what downtime is? I told a kid I did nothing last weekend, and he looked at me like I was crazy. He asked what I was doing this weekend and I said “Probably sleeping, mostly,” and he actually gasped. Then he rattled off a bunch of things I could do, to which I had to stop him.
“No, you don’t understand. I plan on sleeping. I’m booked.”
“But you could–”
“Nah. I’m just gonna rest.”
It was as if I had said a bad word or something. I asked what he does when he gets sick, and he says he goes to practice anyway. I asked him what he does if he doesn’t feel like going, and he said he goes anyway. I asked when he takes time to rest, and he said when he sleeps at night.
Bring back lazy Sundays. Bring back Saturday morning cartoons. Bring back the idea of relaxing and soaking in your day before moving into the next thing. Bring back the right to breathe, the right to rest.
Bring back mental health days, and taking a break. Bring back taking a walk or watching a show or setting a timer to remind yourself to stop cleaning and relax.
If you’re running at 100% all the time with no time to recharge, then your battery is going to die spectacularly, and probably at the worst possible time.
Mood
Society is trying to burn us all out. Tell society to fuck off.
Go take a fucking nap. You’ve more than earned it and you deserve it.
We HAVE to recharge. Our bodies, our minds, our everything requires it.
You don’t always have to be productive. And also take off the idea that you need rest to be *more* productive. You just need rest, period. For you.
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Congratulations, you put a band-aid on my cuts, you put some medicine on my sores and you kissed my bruises. But you did not heal me, nor did you fix me. You covered up the pain with broken remedies; only time gave me these faded scars reminding me I don’t need a savior; I need a tomorrow.
ive been SAYING this but growing up gay is a traumatic experience in and of itself
like not that anyone asked BUT to expand on this but despite the obvious interactions with homophobia that every gay person is bound to encounter its just like…your family/even some close friends never ~truly~ know who you are or what you’re interested in because the Gay Experience is about protecting your identity/interests before everything else so by the time you grow up even your parents - no matter how accepting they think they are - have absolutely no inkling about who you really are as a person and thats just a super lonely and exhausting way to exist within a family or a social circle broe!
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Tumblr as a content platform has an operational model that’s inherently hard to monetize and like the fact that no capitalist understood that when they bought the company is hilarious
David Karp really finessed the fuck out of yahoo and like good for her
David when that check cleared
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I need everyone to stop for a second. I can’t breathe. I need space.
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